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The Music's Rob Harvey Talks Drug Addiction

15th February 2008 | by Aidan Williamson

Rob Harvey, vocalist with Leeds psychedelic rock band The Music has spoken out about the drug addiction that has blighted his life since his teenage years.

In a message to fans to show them the destructive effect Marijuana has had on his well-being Harvey described how the habit led to alcoholism, over-eating and depression and even left him contemplating suicide following the release of their second album "Welcome to the North".

He started receiving professional treatment in 2005 and began his "constant battle to remain part of reality... Whenever things [used to get] bad or too scary, I'd hide in the negativity of the world. [Those] were the only answers I could find. [It wasn't] a good place to be."

He explains: "The addiction began to sit into its groove. At first it was a joy them later became a habit and a way of escaping the problems and thoughts that [troubled me]. Broad and unrealistic thoughts. Remember the song Life? Waking up on a misty morning all i want to do is get high? That's the only thing that seemed worth living for. Well, that and music."

"It was after I returned from the touring of the 2nd album that i began to feel unwell. Confused and so very scared. I had quit the habit of weed cos it turned out it wasn't for me. It opened so many doors in my mind. Some wonderful, some not so wonderful. I had to substitute it with beer and food. I had become bigger and slower. I was no longer this bouncing young man that thrived off expressing himself. I always tried to make people feel like they could forget about what they looked like in order to for them to feel free for a moment. (a bit like when your at a party and the dance-floor is clear and you have to wait for some idiot to get up and make a tit of themselves before you can get up, ya know? I'm that guy who gets up first to give you licence to say, "fuck it"). Anyway.....id got fat and lazy in my eyes."

"At the end of 2005 i wasn't myself.I had no beliefs anymore. I didn't really care about anything.I still had the same thoughts pounding round my head, the difference now was that i knew that i couldn't do anything about poverty and fucking random shit like that. Before I felt like I could. Reality took hold of me and what i saw i didn't like for one second. I sat on my arse a watched the weeks roll by. Monday after Monday, the snowball now the size of a mountain."

"Drinking became the place to hide. I'd have a bottle of wine before 7pm, then go out and make a fool of myself. The next day was always panic and more questions."

"The things that were so strong had become weak and pointless. Like my voice......the thing that gives me everything i own. I know now when i look back the performances on the 2nd album were bad.That hurts me to realise that."

"Acceptance was never easy. Always hiding in the negativity until I began to feel an overwhelming sense of doom every day was bad. It took a close friend to say to me......."Robert, you are depressed". Thinking, ok im a little down about things but I'm not that bad. Paranoia is a killer. Suicide became an option. The doors in which i had opened in my early life needed closing or at least entering and sorting out."

"The last 2 years have been tough and I've faced up to the countless questions that were asked. Sorted through them.You'll hear what i mean when you hear the record. For now my battle is staying focused on the positive and trying to live a clean and happy life."

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Karen Halls

commented 12 months ago

I found your site on google blog search and read a few of your other posts. Keep up the good work. Just added your RSS feed to my feed reader. Look forward to reading more from you.

Karen Halls

Maria

commented 12 months ago

Yes, all too often the music industry seems to leap to the defense of drug addicts, saying that it helps them write better songs, unfortunately, the drugs dont work, and if you dont sort yourself out quickly you end up looking like a tit, or dead.....xoxo

Aidan Williamson

commented 12 months ago

...or both

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